I just took a self-esteem quiz.

This is what it told me:

The potential of being rejected by others as a result of who you are or what you do is not something that you allow yourself to worry about. If people don't accept you the way you are, you are not going to go out of your way to attain their approval. Granted, rejection by someone in your life may very well hurt you, but you won't let it dictate how you feel about yourself. You know that the only approval you should be worried about is your own, and when you respect and approve of yourself, you are more likely to project an image to others that says "I am worthy, and I am have much to offer to someone."

The last sentence is entirely true. And I would like to think it's pretty accurate too.


One of the reasons for this high level of self esteem, maybe be that I'm awesome. Also, the fact that every time I go into town without a male companion, I find a new one who would like to be my companion. There is no lack of men who want to date me(I'm guessing at least half would just like to get into my pants though).


Tonight, after dancing, I'm going on a date with the guy from Weta. When I say date, I mean, I have to get ride of him. Because it's not working for me. I tried to lay the ground for dumping him last week. I think it kind of worked. I'm just not assertive enough. It's hard to tell someone you have no desire to see them anymore when you're naked and relying on them driving you home. I never got to swim in the boobly pool again.That makes me a little sad. I'm also getting rid of him, because a friend made me promise to her that I would only have 2 men on the go at the most. And I'm about to add a new one into the mix on Thursday. Look him up on facebook - http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150416817594045.448002.644414044

Just look at that picture. Admire the torso. Browse the rest if you feel inclined, but really, you just need to look at that picture. I only met him briefly on Friday night, but it would appear he's quite taken by me. He said that I gave him butterflys. And said (I'ma quote some texts now) ""I just know in my mind and body I like you" - that means he thinks I'm a babe. Also, apparently I'm easy to talk to and have kind eyes...

I think he's maybe just a real straightforward, kiwi guy. Just...yep. Anyway. He has a babin bod. I wanna take him for at least one ride around the block. Did I mention he surfs? He asked me if I wanted to go to the beach with him on Saturday morning(he asked at 8:30am or something ridiculous). I declined. I had lunch with my mum anyway. Also, bed seemed way better than hanging out on a beach.

Oh, and so, I went on a date with A on Wednesday. I quite like him. I actually do. He's smart and nice and....yep. We get along real well. Timing is problematic though. I think he likes that he can beat me at any game we play. Pool and bowling have been tried. He won both. I do believe mini golf is on the cards too. And I wanna make him come ice skating with me. Yeah. We had sex once. Before we went on a date. So the first time I met him. Well, I'd met him before apparently, but I don't remember. Anyway, we'd both consumed mucho alcohol. It wasn't ideal. It wasn't terrible. He played Fleetwood Mac in the morning and dropped me off at home on his way to the vege market. Yeah. He's good. Young, but good.

Oh. I went to the dentist yesterday. They gave me 3 new fillings. Yeah. There's still more to go. And crowns. Shit. Bitch gon' be expensive. Already is. Also - booking in my wisdom teeth removal for the 25th October. One month to go. Eeeeee.

Goddamn I need to drop the kids off at the pool. 15 minutes of work to go. I can do it. And then, find myself an unoccupied floors bathroom(I mean, all the people who work on it have already left for the day).

YEP. Life is pretty good. Still battling the rash. Fucking rash. Always with me.

Oh. I forgot. Yesterday was my first day of non-smoking. I had 2 cigarettes. This, while not being a complete halt, is still an improvement on my previous smoking. Also, no weed. No burning things going into my lungs. Hopefully, my skin will get better. I'm unsure if stopping will be a permanent thing if it doesn't. Although, most of the men I seem to attract are non smokers. Which is really quite interesting. Hmmmm. I haven't smoked at all today, just so you know. And I should be able to not smoke at all tonight. Yep. I'm feeling quietly positive.