Looking Up

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I started my new job last week. I think it's going better. I still don't have any work to do. I'm passing the time though. Still get to see himself too which is good. Maybe not as frequently as I would like, but still, I get to see him. We had coffee this morning. I paid. Don't want him to think I'm just using him....hahahaha nah, I just think I should pay sometimes. Because I'm a lady for equality, and that means buying him a coffee every now and then. It's not like he hasn't bought me copious amounts of coffee and some lunch...

The new job, checking timetables. It's boring as hell. I think I would often rather be in the call centre. It's kinda nice having my own space though. Well, it was a whole room to myself for a while, but now I share it with 2 other ladies. One is a lovely gay roughly the same age as myself, the other is a from South Africa, but is Indian, and is new to the company. She's nice. She asks me a lot of questions. I don't really know all the answers but I pretend I do all the same...Hahaha nah, I'm quite open about things when I don't know how to do them. Or when things mysteriously don't work. I have my own phone line though. Oooooooh yeah! 830 4289. I also have an internal extension number, but none of you need that in any way shape or form. (it's actually the last 4 digits).I think that may be the most exciting part so far. The woman who trained me(and is still training me a bit I guess) is fairly incompetent when it comes to teaching. I'm sure she can do it, she's just crap at teaching it. And I don't really like her. She's a bit shit. And gigantic. Hahahaha. Not actually gigantic, she's just a tall lady. Like an Amazon. A pear shaped body also. Love my hourglass.

I turned 25 on Wednesday. I contemplated having a quarter life crisis. I think it passed. Which is good. Because in the past year I have actually achieved a WHOLE bunch of things. I may have been single the entire time, but that's way better than the year before in which I was unemployed for the entire duration. Now that was depressing. But now, I dunno, I think I'm doing good. I'm fitter now, than I can ever remember being, which is awesome. I'm gonna get me some sweet ab definition by New Years. And, I have a job which pays...fairly decently considering how little education I've had, and the fact that it is a relatively unskilled job. And I even get shifted around in the building because of my super awesome powers. I feel like my skills are being under-utilised, but still being recognised. Which is something at least. And the only form of sexual harassment is welcomed. And there's talk of promotion, which is awesome, even if the pay rate doesn't increase that much, it will look really good on my CV. And that's what I'm kind of about presently. Preparing for the future. Whatever it may hold. Because I can either let life pass me by, or try and make the most of it. And I'm ready to make the most of it.

Ooooh, what else have I done in the past year...I got a sugar daddy, and got rid of him. I went to Japan, without any language abilities. I survived, I think it made me stronger. I think as long as you learn and grown from experiences nothing is wasted. I realised last night, that...shit. B* . I realised he has a few common attributes with Daniel, but without the negative ones. Makes sense. Pretty much, everything that Daniel wanted to do was just a pipe dream, and was very rarely going to pan out. B* decides he wants to do something, and he works for it, and makes it happen. What else has happened...ummmm. I think I've been sacking up and taking charge of things a bit more. Which has been hard work. But I know it has to happen. Things aren't going to happen unless I make them happen. I'm trying to figure out whether I should text James and be like "oi. I wanna hang out with you tonight" or not. I wouldn't use those words. You see, I can't be bothered doing anything tonight. There's fireworks, but I know they always make me disappointed, and after going to Japan and watching an hour long display, I'm pretty sure only fireworks I let off at home which have some sort of danger element can really compete. I NEED DANGER!

I've really lost momentum. Lunch really took it out of me. I think I got too distracted by other things. I wanted to buy a corset at lunch, because I saw some in the farmers(I know, I know) catalogue, and they looked kinda rad. They didn't have my size. I want a proper corset. I saw some at im, well, in their catalogue(underwear porn to the max), and nom nomnomnomnom SO PRETTY but also very expensive. Like, hundreds of dollars. More than 5 hundreds of dollars. I can't justify that. It's half my savings. Sure, they're beautiful, but that's just too much. And what if my boobs suddenly get bigger/smaller or....or....I don't know. Either way, as sad as it makes me to say.

Okay, just asked if I can steal some of his time this weekend. I'm attempting becoming a tiny bit more aggressive, but in a non threatening way, just in more of a...I know what I want and I'm going to get it. That sounded aggressive. I'm just working on taking charge of stuff. I really want to spank him. I'm going to.